In this collage I’m expressing the weight of expectation we see in this section of Infinite Jest. From the ideas we have during childhood about what adulthood is going to be. And how needed and necessary that expectation is for our survival. In the throes of anticipation we create our expectations of the future. When we no longer have what it takes to expect that better things are coming, that loneliness goes away, we find ourselves susceptible to the same kind of suspended state that we find Joelle Van Dyne in. Desiring to shuffle off the weight of unmet expectations.
In the collage I am also seeking to allude to the conversation between the phone Hal and Orin. About how superstions put us at ease. And the weight of the expecations of others that every E.T.A student faces. It is not only the outside expectations that these students face but the built up hope stored inside themselves of making it to this end.For some the Big Show being an unachieved goal and an unmet expectation, for others a relic worthy of superstition that could never live up to the expectations and hopes placed in it.
This same expecatation causes some people to be averse to the idea and for some ever present reality of God. And even more than that religion.
But as a beliver myself I am reminded of two things that often overthrow my hurt at unmet expecatations of God, any human, or any thing.
The first being a quote from one of my favorite Pastors and Iconoclasts Erwin McManus “…And God is not a God who loves superstition. Or a God that is committed to ritual and I thank God for that. Because I have no interest in ritual, I have no interest in superstition, I have no interest in religion. If it does not have a viable, palatable, life changing impact
I don’t want it.”
And the second being a favorite verse From Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
When you connect these to life. When you insert when you see that Life is so much more than the sum of our parts and what we expect them to add up to we becoming whole and unencumbered.
And this quote from a previous section of the text is what brings me to believe DFW had similar thoughts
“How promising you are as a student of the Game is a function of what you can pay attention to without running away…”